cooking, dessert, Uncategorized

the time Chef Peter made cronuts…

Waaay back in 2013 my husband heard a story about the street vendor who invented cronuts on NPR. He told me about it and the two of us became obsessed.

It was a while ago, so I apologize if I have any of this mixed up. A man invented something wonderful that was a cross between a croissant and a donut…a cronut. He sold them in New York City for $5 each with a limit of 2 per person. He started selling them at 5am lasting for only one hour. Everyday there were crazy lines down the street.

Peter’s version was filled with lemon custard and frosted with dark chocolate frosting. the original had custard and chocolate frosting, too, but he made some adjustments.

The dough is croissant pastry. you should have seen the mastery at work (and the astonishing amount of butter), when he made that!

You form it into a donut shape, leaving room for the lemon custard filling.

Deep fry it and fill it with cold custard and put the chocolate frosting on top.

Eat immediately!

Eating them was an experience unlike any other! The texture is insanely nice. The hot dough and cold custard balance each other perfectly.

You have to eat them when they’re almost too hot to hold so they don’t seem greasy.

The frosting is ganache. He makes it by melting Scharfenberger 79 % dark chocolate in a dish over boiling water. He stirs in heavy cream and lets it cool.

The very dark chocolate contrasts with the sweet custard beautifully.

The whole thing melts in your mouth. It’s perfect harmony!

We both ate 2 and then feel in bed and died.

Damn they were good.


Roasted Cauliflower Soup by Chef Peter

I take pictures of the food we eat pretty often because my husband is a superb chef. He cooks 3 meals a day almost everyday (lunches…for both of us…are leftovers during the week.).

I eat like a queen! Some of it, like tonight’s roasted cauliflower soup, is healthy, and some isn’t at all!

He really should blog about it, but it seems funny to even think about Peter writing a blog. He’s a total introvert and when online, he lurks at all possible times!

I thought I’d start sharing some of his cooking, it seems too good not to!

On Sunday nights my he makes meals that take quite a while to prepare. That’s partly because he has the time, but also because he goes to the farmer’s market every Sunday morning. He likes to take the time too make more creative and ambitious dishes. He usually concentrates on one dish.

Tonight he used one of my least favorite veggies, a winter staple, cauliflower, to make a delicious soup.

He roasted 2 heads of cauliflower tossed in olive oil, salt, pepper, and garlic powder. He roasted it in the oven for 45 (?) minutes and then used a hand blender to mix it with chicken stock he made yesterday. He could it until boiling, added soy sauce, sautéd broken up spicy Italian sausage (also from the farmer’s market).

Finished with powdered Chipotle and pecans, it looks as tasty as it was! We ate it with the toasted ends of last week’s bread.

Stay tuned for more YUM.




anxiety, chronic illness, diabetes, drugs, fatigue, feelings, food, illness, insulin, medicine

diabetes: eating fail

this morning it seems like l have to do a million things, one right after another, that required standing or walking. up  the stairs down the stairs, get dressed, brush teeth all that, went out to get coffee, up the stairs, take the dog out, upstairs, down stairs, do some dishes, etc, etc. i finally collapse at my desk chair guzzling coffee and juice.

guzzling juice is a big no no! my diabetes is still out of control, but it’s  getting better, slowly. i check my  blood sugar when i wake up and when i go to bed. i figure all the weight loss must help somehow! i’ve had diabetes since  i was 26, so 20 years  this year. when it first came on i  got DKA (diabetic ketoacidosis) and was in the hospital for a week. pretty  scary!

when i first got out of the hospital  i ate incredibly carefully.  i had turkey sandwiches after that. i’d have two pieces of turkey, mustard, and pickles. hated it. i ate low calorie frozen dinners, again, those were  disgusting.i started counting carbs and there were very few calories i could eat and even fruit was off limits a lot of the time. fruit! i was really  upset about that. i love fruit so much, but then my endocrinologist said American fruit was much much bigger that fruit from other places so i had to cut all my fruit in half  and only eat one of the halves! outrageous!

this has been a huge struggle for 20 years. it seems i can’t have ANYTHING i like. it was a lot like the Atkins diet and i hate meat and dairy. i’m not left with much. beetroot salad with no dressing, lol. they kept pushing chicken  on me. i can eat it once in awhile, but i don’t really like it. i could have yogurt for snacks. i don’t like yogurt. i could have cheese, i hate cheese with a passion. string cheese they said,  cottage cheese, meat snacks and dairy snacks.that was the worst diet i could eat. i do like eggs, but i don’t like fish.

i was overweight so you know i love my food! so a lot of the time i’ve been tempted into eat all manner of foods  that i’m not supposed to  eat. there have been a lot of times when i didn’t check my sugar or take my insulin and oral medications. it all seemed like too much, eating foods i enjoyed ie didn’t hate, having so many things to do to take care of  myself along with all the other meds and such like that i had to do at particular times. other times i was so obsessed with my  blood sugar that was testing it  8  or 9 times a day. apparently,the better i’m doing the more i i test, because i think it will make me feel good, the opposite for when i’m doing badly. obviously i’m in denial

occasionally  i’ve eaten well for various periods of time, gained and lost a lot of weight. like i said, it was a constant struggle. it continues. and will continue and continue  i don’t know how  to deal with this in a more effective way, but i sabotage myself over and over. i’ve tried to reform myself a ridiculous number of times. i don’t want to end up getting  my legs cut off or have cirrhosis or kidney failure, a stroke, a heart attack, you name it. i   don’t know what to do and it makes me worried sick.



dessert, food, photography



i took this photo at an Asian gelato shop called Sweet Orchid. it’s divine! they have gelato in flavors i’m familiar with like chocolate orange, which might be my favorite, but they also have flavors that i’m not familiar with, like othmanthus, below. all of it is made there at the shop. they have a little case of the cutest most delicious small servings of interesting cheese cake, tiramisu, cookies, unlike any other cookie. very fresh biscotti. they serve espresso and the crowning glory is a little case in the corner that had beautiful, ornate, artful, mind blowing gelato cakes. they’re some absurd price and someday i’m going to buy one and smash my face into it.

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writing with nothing to write about

today I feel like writing, but I don’t have anything new or exciting to say, though. maybe i’ll just write random shit about a subject I like a lot…food!

I’m really picky, like, beyond normal picky. I think it has something with my OCD. i’ll like something one day and hate it the next. things like the size and shape of food are considered when i decide what i can eat. this is very challenging to my poor husband, who does all the cooking. I know he gets frustrated by this. so do I. I want to be able to eat predictably. it would make both of our lives easier!

I like eating with spoons, not forks. never forks! forks are for squares! who wants to stab their food when you can just shovel?? fingers are often even better! rip rather than cut. gnaw. nom nom nom!

when I was 5 months old I threw my bottle across the room and that was that! I haven’t had a straight up glass of milk since then. it’s pretty harmless seeming thing, especially the fat free stuff that I use on my cereal. when I eat cereal, I drain the milk off the spoon and eat the cereal that got wet from it. I have a hate hate relationship with dairy products. the one exception is ice cream. I can’t stop thinking that all dairy stuff is rotten. yogurt, of course, is the worst.

I eat pizza without cheese which is just kind of sad. everything falls off and it feels very dry. I miss decent, real pizza, but I’d never be able to eat the cheese. I can see things that look like they would be good, like Greek yogurt or grilled cheese, but I wouldn’t even be able smell them without choking.

I like carbs!! it’s sad but true. I like bread more than chocolate! I feel like a meal is not a real meal without a carb. when we have eggs and bacon, I feel like it’s sorely lacking without toast. we eat chili Cincinnati style (my husband grew up there). the chili goes over spaghetti with toppings like cheese or onions. that’s how it should be! carbs with everything! I know that’s not healthy, and I don’t eat that way all the time, but I loves me some carbs!

I looove fruit! I like apples, nectarines, all sorts of berries,very ripe bananas, kiwi fruit, avocados, tomatoes, grapes, pineapples, melon, mangoes, papya pears, etc.. sometimes cut up fruit with vanilla ice cream can be the best dessert ever! I worry about rottenness and thing like worms inside. cut up is safest.

nuts! I love nuts! the only kind of nuts I don’t like are those without salt!! cashews are my favorites, perfect texture. when I was a kid we always had a big wooden bowl of nuts with a nutcracker and small metal picks, at Christmas time . Brazil nuts are by far the hardest kind to get the shell off.

(switching gears…)

I had a difficult week, mainly because of hip pain. I’m getting to experience many new and exciting sensations of pain. lol! It’s like what people say about Inuit people or Finnish people having a bizzillion words for snow in their vocabularies. i, and probably all chronic pain sufferers, have a zillion different ways to describe pain.

earlier in the week I painted quite a few ATCs. I’m feeling an urge to do something bigger. just talking about painting makes me feel excited ! I tried it 3 times already today, but I’ll give it another go.

time to try to paint!!!!! (wish me luck!)